After Joe died I must have some form of grief induced a.d.d. Anyway, I couldn’t read anything longer than a short magazine or newspaper article. A novel? Forget it. So I started subscribing to magazines–usually they had to be a dollar an issue or less. Also Joe had frequent flyer miles that he did not […]

Babe, Sometime I still want to blame you for leaving me. Then I remember that you gave me the best gift I can imagine. Three of the most wonderful human beings I know just happen to be our children. I love you. Joan

Today is Wayne’s Birthday, so I’ve been thinking a lot about him. I remember how he made me feel as if I were attractive and appealing. I remember how much he made me laugh. I remember what a wonderful daddy he was. I also remember how dependent on his approval and presence I became. I’m […]

You must look at my daughter in England. Click on England Blog link on my main page. Caitlan is at Oxford looking matriculated. I want my sons to post pictures of where they are in their respective cities. Last night I should have done all kinds of business, but I accidentally started watching FATHER OF […]

I love my piano. It was my big present when Wayne and I moved into TwoTrees. He said I should have the piano, and then he could have his FoosBall table. But I think he was as excited about the piano as I was. I’m glad we had it for all three of the kids […]

Yesterday was a good day because I spent the day with my friends the Willetts. You know those friends that are always there for you and even if you haven’t been together for a while you just take up where you left off in the conversation. We raised our kids together and grieved our losses […]

Caitlan Claire and Nicholas James both graduated today–KK from Georgetown and Nic from Bellarmine. Both will carry on their educations–Nic at Auburn pursuing an academic adventure in veterinary medicine and KK at Oxford experiencing an educational endeavor involving political science and economics. Admission into either of these programs is no small potatoes! It was absolutely […]

My three ships are in–Brendan from L-ville, Ian from Glendale, Caitlan from England. They are my comfort, my support, my purpose. They are unconditional love. They breathe Wayne and reflect the influence of Joe. They are the immortality of a special union. Amazingly, it was a good day. We awoke late, having been to Midnight […]

I was driving in the car and I had on THE WORLD from PRI and Lisa Mullins was interviewing Aine Minogue, a Celtic harpist who has released a cd of Celtic lamentations. And I realized they were talking to me about my grief. She said that universally cultures grieve for a year and then move […]

My children are philosophers. Not surprising since their father was such, and the little time that they spent with their philosopher-stepfather must have affected them as well. Brendan the railer(he who rails against the MAN), Ian the searcher (he keeps heading East), and Caitlan the seeker of justice (she wonders whether India and Ghana are […]