Archive for October, 2001

When I fail the CS test Tuesday, it is for once not going to be my fault. Went to theprofessor’s scheduled study session only to find a distinct lack of said professor. Darren, Robertand I tried to work out what we could (and had a nice bonding session), but it’s tough to studywhen you don’t even know if you’ve done the homework right.

I feel like I’m in college or something.

I don’t think I’ve mentioned it in here yet, but I’m not going to London. It turns out I like CStoo much, although at times like this I wonder why.

Anyway, the site’s going live this week. I already cringe at the art from the very first strips,but hey, it’s all development. I’ll put the filler toon that’s up right now into CG, put up theEnter Xorph toon and plug the heck out of it on the various forums I frequent. I’m hoping for tenhits. Hoo hah, Charlie.

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Okay, so I get groused at for not updating. Bah humbug on all (five) of you! I wanted more mail. We’re lonely out here, me and Ethel and the chickens.

Eventful weekend so far, in an uneventful way. Mad chaos by way of Jon’s computer, which starteddoing everything but what it was supposed to (ie tap-dancing, making toast) and required a formatand subsequent hijinks to fix. This followed a visit from Jarvis and, night before that, anactual Short Story practice. Hell is whiningabout the thermostat again.

But, uh, not much other than that. Promise.

Just got done watching SNL and man oh man. It was just bad, like they put it togetherwithout a dress rehearsal or in fact a script. I think this is the only time they’ve been funnyentirely by accident. And in the midst of it all, Will Ferrell stands like some kind of… king ordeposed tyrant, who rules by sheer ability to keep a straight face, or maybe the fact that he canlook like he has a lazy eye when he wants to.

This entry lacks an ending (like so many of the night’s sketches), so I’ll leave you withthis.

Me: “He died in a trash compactor? That’s horrible! …How are they going to have thefuneral?”
Jon: “Short coffin.”

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I’m kind of wondering how many people read this, and also I want to test my PHP form skills andcheck if my email account really works. To those ends, I’m putting up the stuff below in hopes oftaking a few names (and kicking a few–no, never mind).

Update 6.23.03 1939 hrs: Sorry, had to delete this for the conversion to NewsBruiser. Write me instead!

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I broke up with my girlfriend this afternoon, and a few hours later found out that someone I knowcommitted suicide on Friday.

Not the greatest weekend, but I’m dealing.

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Well I feel like shit.

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I got an email this morning from Milton Reigelman, the head of the abroad program–a response to myown mini-application to the London program. The slot’s open, and he said I could have it.

As Oscar as it sounds, it’s an honor just to be accepted–usually you’re supposed to go through abig ol’ application and interview process the year before you go. I sent last-minute two emails andgot a thumbs-up. Maybe if stupid stuff like this didn’t happen so consistently I wouldn’t be such acocky procrastinating bastard, but it does…

I do want to go, like I said a few days ago. All thatanglophilia is still with me. But going to London probably means not being a comp sci majoranymore. I might be able to get the minor, and I’d have almost all the courses. Without OperatingSystems and Algorithms (which the morons are only offering spring of this year), though, I graduatewith a Bachelor’s of Art in Drama and that’s all.

It’s weird to think about. I’ve known I was going to be a double major since I was ten.

I may be going home this weekend (for the first time since school started–how un-freshman), soI’ll at least get to talk to Mom about it. I have to know by Monday.

I wanna run through the halls of my highschool
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs

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skepticism, CartesianAny of a class of skepticalviews against empirical knowledge based on the claim that claims to empirical knowledge are defeated bythe possibility that we might be deceived insofar as we might be, for example, dreaming,hallucinating, deceived by demons, or brains in vats.

Listening to Eminem–”WhoKnew.” Man’s an ass, but you can’t deny talent like that.

My dreams tend to have deep, involved backstories. Last night I had four distinct characters (I’mnot sure if I was one of them) trapped in this twilight world with beat-up cars, dangerous songsand statues. They stole books from abandoned houses where the floors were knee-deep in leaves,disappeared through portals, confronted each other and dealt with selective amnesia and wariness ofpeople they’d once known and trusted. I knew that every image had a symbolism, and I knewthat I knew how these characters got there and how they were related.

But when I half-woke up and tried to remember their origins, I got nothing. Then–this is the weirdpart–I tried to remember what had just happened in the dream, and it hadn’t happened yet.It was all like a preface for a story that was about to take place. No action to it.

So I went back to sleep and it did happen. The whole story played out, and of course I hardlyremember any of it, but it seemed like it was hours long. Also seemed entertaining enough–I didn’treally want to wake up.

Here’s the thing: I looked at the clock when I woke up the first time, and it was around 1:00–liketwenty minutes after I went to bed, maybe five after I fell asleep. I was probably barely in REMwhen all that stuff just appeared in my brain.

The brains-in-vats theory is an old one, but it’s still useful when you need to take a step back.The nature of reality may not be elastic, but our brains are–the only reason our dreams are evenwithin our frame of reference is because of the way language, sight and sound are hardwired intoour neurons.

I dropped my head for five minutes, my nerves fired at random for a little while and this worldpopped out of nowhere. It’s like shaking a Yahtzee tumbler and having the dice spell out a passagefrom Richard III in Morse code. How improbable is that? How fragile are the ties between our brainsand reality?

What if they weren’t there?

… okay, enough of that. I need to talk to Becker about this kind of stuff. For more ways to fuckwith your mind, though, try thinking about this: what if darkness isn’t in fact the absence oflight, but a whole other kind of energy itself?

wasn’t me. slim shady said to do it again
damn! how much damage can you do with a pen?

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Updated the front page. Hell reports unusually cold temperatures.

I applied for Safety Monkey’s new camportal… we’ll see ifI get in. I did, after all, offer him cheese.

Please find attached a screen cap of today’s junk mail folder. Gosh but I love spam! I have to wonder if this kind ofthing works. Also, how they managed to get ahold of a hotmail address that short and common.

but we felt very strange
in the moment but the moment was past

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