I’m supposed to be working on my thesis
But I don’t really know where to start. I don’t want to do school work. I wish I could just do a paper instead of a thesis. Then I would just have another normal tutorial and another collection, and just do 8 instead of 7 three-hour final exams. But then I think it will be cool to have a thesis under my belt. And usually students get higher marks on theses because more work goes into them. And I don’t know how I’d tell my adviser that I don’t want to anymore. I’m just being lazy, and I know it. But I feel like I deserve a break. And I know, I’ve already had one. I’ve taken 3 1/2 weeks off. But I want more. I’m also just scared. Doing this thesis is more than just memorizing. It’s thinking up new stuff, being original, and really analyzing. And though you’d think I would have, I haven’t ever really done that. I think I’ve acted like an overachiever, but really I’ve done the least I could get away with when it comes to individual things. I’ve just done a lot of things with a little work on each. Soon I’ll be writing more Europe blog entries and putting up more pictures, but that makes me feel like I’m really procrastinating. By writing about my thesis, at least I’m thinking about it, even if I’m not really doing work on it. And then I think about the fact that I don’t know what I’m going to do when I get done with Oxford. And Suke told me I need to look into that over this break as well. But I don’t know where to start there either. Any suggestions?