I feel like I should be done.
Rowing is over. Veronica Mars is over. Most of my lectures are over. I feel like school should be over. But I’ve still got three more weeks. Three more weeks doesn’t sound like much, but when I consider that I’ve only been doing school work for the past 5 weeks, it seems like a lot. I still have a lot I want to do before the term is over, but instead of doing work so I’m sure I have time to do them, I daydream. And sleep. I’ve slept so much over the past couple days. I get tired reading, and rather than pushing through, I think I’ve got tons of free time now that rowing is done and I only have two lectures a week, so I’ll just take a nap. Not good.
Yesterday I finally got some reading done before I went to bed, but I should have gotten more done. And my tutor from my first tutorial told me to just focus on one reading for my questions because apparently students get really confused on it. So I barely have any reading for that, and the concepts seem pretty clear to me, so I feel a little worried, like there’s some complex part of the concept that I’m missing, but then at the same time, I think, well don’t need to do much more for that. I have no motivation. I’m ready for Melissa and Christi to get here so we can go around Europe. I’m ready to come home. I’m ready to stop spending so much money. This term has been so expensive. But I’ve still got three more weeks of work and two more weeks after that of spending more money, although at least it will be the euro instead of the pound.
Brendan is coming this weekend, so that will be fun. And at formal hall, we’re having our own table for rowing to celebrate. Then the next week, I’ll have two essays and have to present one of them, and after that one more set of questions and one more essay that I won’t have to present. Melissa and Christi come the weekend after Brendan. And Final Fling is that weekend too. And we’re supposed to have another rowing dinner just for the girls, and take pictures of both teams together. And Jennifer, Kristie, and I want to get to Stratford one day. I still need to call the box office and see if we can get cheap tickets for King Lear. And I have to see if David Harper has gotten my Student Aid Report, so I can hopefully sort out loan stuff before this summer. And my thesis. Too much to think about. I need to take it one thing at a time, but then I just think I’ve got plenty of time to get everything done. I need to get my motivation back, and remember that I’m not done yet.